The starting of 2013

Today I'm having a holiday for the new year...so didn't have a class for the first day of 2013...
But somehow I just felt really sad today...I smile when I'm with my friends...
Deep inside of my heart I feel really sad today...far away from home celebrating the new year...
Also far away from the guy that I like...I don't know if he have the same feeling towards me..I always keep checking out his status at his bbm....sometimes I feel like my character is the same like the character of this one women in the book that I've recently post..its like an obsession...I hope its not...because its kind of scary I'm afraid that I won't let someone else get into my heart...the most I'm afraid of is that I'm afraid that there will be no love between us...But I think I can forget about him because these days when I met with him I don't feel anything anymore towards him...The heart beat that I always felt when I met with him is no longer exist....