Give up on you...

I already give up on you....and I think that the best way I can do...because you never show me that you did have a feeling towards me...so I decided to move on...the last time I met you..you were so cold towards me...I feel like you really don't have a feelings toward me...maybe I'm the one that think you like me...how stupid I am...or maybe because poor to myself because never exprience "the first love" that I think a lot of people already exprience it...maybe I'm the only one that not lucky enough to feel that kind of love....I don't know maybe I just should give up on everything...maybe I'm destined won't ever feel that kind of love....

You guys are not a good friends...

For such a long time you and me become friends...we even make a group name for our friendship...and that name also represent for the 4 of us...how come one of you guys keep on need to wait for me text you guys first then later you can remember me...somehow I know you guys keep in touch together without me know anything...do I need to text you guys first??can't you text me first??its like I'm the only one that still love this group...you know what the most heartache that I ever in my life when I was friend with you guys??the 3 of you went to a such wonderful place and having so much fun without me...what kind of friendship is this anyway??if we were friends you should remember me...maybe you guys keep on look at me I'm fine with what you guys done...but do you how pain deep inside of my heart??The promises that been done...none of you fulfill that promises...

Can't go back home this week...

This week I can't go back home...because the polytechnic is having a program starting from tomorrow until tuesday...but thank God...we don't really need to go that program...so I can spend my time to study or doing some other work...this week it keeps on raining just like the way my heart feel...somehow tomorrow got a bbq party with my classmates....

Sad week...

This week is really a sad week because I only can go back home on Saturday and need to get back on Sunday...my mum and my dad already pray for me can come back home on Friday but still can't...I'm just praying that I the class is going to get cancel...and I'm just hoping that Allah will make my dreams comes true....

Tough week...

This week is really going to be the most tough week and the most challenging my heart because there is a lot of test that need to get done with....the thing that I hate the most is that I need to stay two more weeks at here if there is a microeconomics replacement class....I really hope the lecturer will make another time not on this Saturday and Sunday..even my mum and my dad wanted me to go back home...I really really want to go back home like seriously....:(

Poor to myself...

It's going to be sad things if I need to stay at here for two weeks..because my roommate is going to back home left me all alone...and for that 2 days I've got a replacement class...even that person already asking me whether I'm going to back home next week or not...:) I hope that my mum and my dad doa is going to happen because they wanted me to go back home next week....Ya Allah I hope next week I can go back home and meet with that person....

Solemn day....

Today is really the day that I really don't have my mood...and I didn't even talk much with my friends....even at the class also I just keep silents...until my friends realizes that today I didn't talk much....she was asking me whether I'm fine or not...I just said to her that I'm just fine and nothing's wrong with me....but actually deep inside my heart I'm feeling really so awful today...sometimes I feel like I don't want to study at here anymore....but I'm still at here because of my parents..and I feel like I'm really going to waste my first semester just like that...just 1 month left(I'm not sure coz I didn't count it) I'm going to go through my final exams....just wish me a good luck everyone....